and I've been trying to stay positive, which is extremely hard, especially after being stuck in the hospital for a week. Last night and today was quite rough on me, I was having a hard time and am emotional times 3, so when Chris came up to visit I started crying. Well that's ok as long as a nurse doesn't see you crying. Granted she was really nice and even called the doctor to get me wheelchair privleges (I may be out of my room for 30 minutes a day), but because of that the on call doctor had the emotional wellness people (shrink) come visit me. And then everything gets passed around the nursing floor. The night nurse came in and said she heard I had a hard time earlier today. Heck yeah I had a hard time, I've been having a hard time, and this should be nothing new to anyone around here. I'm stuck in this stupid hospital and I can't see my family very much, not to mention I have to worry about the three babies that I'm carrying, which is another thing of itself, since I want the babies out, but know that they really need to stay in. Talk about guilt. So the morale to this story is... if you are emotionally upset, do not let anyone see it, or else you'll have everyone and their mother trying to talk to you about it. Pretty sure I don't wanna talk. I just wanna sit here and cry and feel sorry for myself thank you very much.
Other than my complaints I really don't know anything else, which is frustrating. I would think that they will be doing another 24 hr urine sometime next week to see how much worse I've gotten, since I won't be getting any better. Other than my assumptions on what I think they will do I know absolutly nothing about whats going on except that I will continue to get worse, just how quickly that happens is the key.
Hi: I followed your link from Triplet Connection to your blog and I check in on you. Hope you don't mind. I am a triplet mom. I just wanted say, you go ahead and cry if you need to! You're going through something really, really challenging and emotional. It is surprising, huh, that the nurses and others don't get it. I don't think mine got it either. Your mixed emotions are SO normal. Congratualtions for making it so far and for knowing how important it is for your babies for them to stay inside, even though it is torture for you. You can do it!!!!!!!! You'll be so glad you did when your babies are born "big" and "healthy."
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